Friday, October 05, 2007

ok. i m home early for once and i can say i didnt pon school today. funny how i subconciously put that letter inside my math tys even thou i forgot to bring it around for less detection. and i have that thing that fabricates images in my mind about certain events till i m unsure if they are real or not.

anyway. mr tan made us write a letter to a 6 month later version of us today. i thought it was interesting. funny i began off the sentence with "hey asshole!" lol. but i guess its really scary to know how fast a person can change, be it myself or the people around me, or the status of relationships we have. 6 months, hell loads of change can take place, i for one will probably be bald by then, a pri 6 student will be in a new school, a uni student graduating will be looking for a job, we ll be one year older, new environment, new experiences that ll shape the way we turn out. i have always been a believer that society or the place we live in shape a person. the same way settings in novels drive the plots.

den today was walking home from school. stopped at the bridge above the longkang, and i never really thought much of it. when pm lee said all these longkangs were gonna get a revamp. i was all for it man. but today i appreciated something i didnt, i looked into the longkang and i saw fishes that were probably bigger and longer than my palm, i saw algae growing, i even saw mussels down deep and dragonflies skimming the surface of the water. and i kinda thought to myself, who would have known such an ugly and stinky place from time to time would form the setting for a beautiful ecosystem, home to interesting species that u would never think to exist at this place. and then i thought, in life there has to be a flipside to everything.

more food, greater satisfaction, more chance of stomachache
join a prestigeous soccer club, win trophies, play less matches
go to a not so good school, greater opportunities, still dont compete with the best of the best
hot headed person, gung ho attitude with loads of drive, erupts and explodes easily
stubborn person, tendency to persist with the same thing to break and to overcome despite keeping on to the same methods, resistent to change even if one suffers constant failure
self aware person, thinks about how ones actions affect the people around him or her and strives to affect them in a good way, so into oneself that the person looks not only at others but also herself and starts feeling inadequacy
witty person, ability to write well and induce humour, argues with others to debunk their notions leading to one being cynical or skeptical but pushing others to a point where they can say nothing
persistent person, unyielding and a never say die attitude, could be irritating and annoying by over bugging other people
relaxed person, less tendency to get stress and to remain composed, so slack that one maybe dilly dally too much or be largely inefficient
individualistic, creates an own identity in the things u do and a form of uniqueness that will elevate u above the rest, overdoing it means u start thinking about over the top things just to prove ur difference

and i guess i can really go and on and on. and i guess its all about the flipside. i was looking at the econs essay yesterday, between budget hotels and 5 star luxury hotels, different cirumstances affect them in a certain way because of different characteristics which make one better to cope under certain circumstances and the other better in coping with another situation. the long run, the short run, ahd flipside and the situation.

everyone, everything, every action, every thought has its flipside. that is why strengths can also be weaknesses, weaknesses can become strenghts, that is why people evolve, that is why we change. and that is why change has its flipside too. but i guess, u ll never know its heads or tails till u actually flip the coin huh, thats wad makes life so interesting and so frustrating at the same time. now thats a flipside too. but hu says we cant keep flipping the coin. cus i wanna be the head and not the tail. above and not beneath. haha. i still remember this line. and given one more chance, given more time. i wanna make sure i get the right side. the fate, the coin, the side, how i get the side, is in my hands. learn from how others flip the coin, and control the way u flip ur own. thats the cornerstone for building a character, not to change ones character but merely to find the most desirable flipside. thats wad i learnt looking at longkang fishes. ciao.

|cowpoo| 2:19 PM|

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